More Than Gold

Where does your value come from?

Do you find it in your job? In relationships? In getting good grades?

In school? Family? In trying to love the image you see in the mirror?

In finding love?

In finding happiness?

Is it from being wanted or needed?

In always seeking something better?

Do you rely on the possessions you own or those you hope to own someday, because those will finally make you happy?

In the car you drive? The phone you use? The shows you watch on Netflix?

In what others think of you? In fitting in?

Where does your value truly lie?

Because I can tell you wholeheartedly that you can never find your importance in anything this world has to offer you.

It will never, ever come close.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.”

I keep coming back to Psalm 139, where these verses come from. It’s really beautiful scripture and every word just hits me over and over.

You are so loved.

You are so loved.

You are so loved.

And then I forget it, every time.

But sometimes God makes his incomprehensible character visible to me and I think I get to just catch a glimpse. He knows me so well, that it is always in something beautiful like a sunset, in unconditional love from a friend or in a song, and it brings me full of tears to my knees.

And I am reminded again, “You are loved.”

Each and every once of us wasn’t just some mistake and every part of us was perfectly placed just as it is. Knitted, I love that word, knitted, in our mother’s womb starting day one, but planned from the beginning of time.

I am fully convinced that if we truly understood how much God cares for us, we would be crushed by the magnitude of His glory and grace. Crushed.

Yet our measly little human brains just don’t get it.

So we go back to forgetting where our value comes from and we find it in everything but Christ.

Yet when God created the Universe, He knew right then and there that in 2017, the world would need one of you. Reading my ramblings on your computer or phone, right where you are.

Broken pieces and struggles, accomplishments and all.

I guess what I am trying to get at is this:

What is the point in finding your worth in all the things of this world when you can find it in something so much better?

What does it matter if you have everything you could ever want on this Earth if you never know how loved you are by the Lord of the Universe?

What’s the point?

Maybe it’s just because I needed a reminder myself, but I hope you remember this now and always… You are worth more than you will ever comprehend to someone who died to know you. Because what matters isn’t the superficial things we try to fill the voids in our hearts with or try to find our value in.

What matters is Christ.

You are worth more.

Finding Rest

Just some thoughts from quiet time today…

Truly my soul finds rest in God;

my salvation comes from him.

Truly he is my rock and my salvation;

he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.

Psalm 62:1-2

Can one allow their soul find rest in God alone? Not in searching, in wondering about the future or regretting the past; in losing themselves in friendships, work or school, relationships, but in Him alone? Yet our souls can reside there, in Him alone and not in all of those other distractions.

Our salvation comes from Him.

Through the cross we are saved.

Redeemed.

Beloved.

Not because of anything that we did, but because of what Christ did for us. Even though we are each in our own way unworthy of such a sacrifice, still it was freely given.

So now I can sit here, in awe, because He is my salvation.

And every time we hit what can only be called rock bottom, there he is.

The rock at the bottom.

Unmoved, unwavering, and waiting patiently for us to run back into his open arms.

A fortress surrounding us.

Protecting.

Defending.

Nothing, and I mean nothing, can penetrate the ultimate protection freely given to us by the ultimate protector.

No storms of life, no trials, NOTHING can separate us from God’s love, and because of that we cannot allow ourselves to be shaken from where we stand.

Oh sweet soul, you have been wandering for much too long. Allow Him to be your protector, your salvation, your fortress, your rock…

And most importantly,
just rest,
you are beloved. ♥

Beautifully (Part 1)

Today might just have been the worst I have had for awhile and even though part of me would love to throw myself a pity party, I won’t bore you with the details.

I’m the type of person to ‘go home and cry about it’ whenever something bad happens. This is not a good quality, I know… But this particular “crappy” day acted as the smack in the face that I honestly needed. So instead of my usual moping on the couch with comfort food and Modern Family, I decided to seek out the reason behind the fact that today was simply the breaking point to a few weeks of not feeling myself.

Here’s the deal: I’m really skilled at faking it, but most days my self confidence is definitely lacking, and for whatever reason this had been even more of an issue for the last month or so. My life is filled with so many awesome women, yet I can’t help be a little intimidated, constantly wondering why I am not as beautiful as them.

I realize that this is a question straight from the pit of Hell. I get that. But some days, I ask it anyway. So in a feeble attempt to make myself feel better, I have become reliant on makeup. I’ve never been one to wear a lot of it, but I have been one to hide behind the makeup I do wear.

I guess a little bit of backstory would be good here… My mom used to be a consultant for Mary Kay, so I have had access to makeup for as long as I can remember. I got my hands on my first tube of mascara in sixth grade – next came foundation, and you know the rest of this story.

Maybe it is because I am very introverted, or perhaps it is because I take everything that is said to me a little too seriously, but it freaked me out when someone would point out that my skin wasn’t blemish free, hence I caked on the makeup to try to hide it. When it was addressed that I have “small eyes”, eyeliner became my best friend. In fact, I haven’t gone out in public without any makeup for years.

First of all, I realize that there are women who can confidently go without makeup and are perfectly fine with it. I am not one of them. That being said, I have come to the conclusion that I want to be!

So for the next month I am going to step wayyyyyyy out of my comfort zone and not wear a drop of makeup.

It is going to be a challenge, but my prayer is that it can teach me that my beauty comes from within, not from covering up and hiding the things that I think aren’t beautiful. Because deep down, I’d rather be known for having a beautiful heart than for having a pretty face.

Here goes!

Do not let your adorning be external—but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God’s sight is very precious. (1 Peter 3:3-4)

Guard Your Treasure

Above all else, guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of life. Put away perversity from your mouth; keep corrupt talk far from your lips. Let your eyes look straight ahead, fix your gaze directly before you. Make level paths for your feet and take only ways that are firm. Do not swerve to the right or the left; keep your foot firm from evil. {Proverbs 4:23-27}

I want to talk about something really important to me: purity.

In a society governed by sexuality and immorality, it is nearly impossible to tell what is right and what is wrong if you are not grounded in the Word day in and day out, which quite frankly I don’t know many people who do, certainly not me as hard as I try.

Today I would like to focus specifically on purity.

Purity covers a large spectrum of values, but the most obvious is sexual purity, or refraining from sex until marriage. As a sacred act, it is vitally important that we remain abstinent for our future spouses and our own well being.

But just because you haven’t done ‘it’ yet doesn’t excuse you from staying pure. I used to know someone who preached purity, but she dressed in inappropriate clothing and did other sexual things with her boyfriend. Am I the only one seeing the problem here?

Purity covers our eyes too.

Looking at another person with lust, dressing to show off our bodies, watching pornography or simply talking about things that are not appropriate that leave images in our minds is just as important. Finally, as the verse above says, guard your heart. By keeping your eyes on Jesus and not allowing Satan to tempt you into impurity, your heart will be grounded in faith. This means praying or reading your bible when you feel tempted, instead of falling into that temptation.
Purity is what sets Christians apart, especially with the world like it is today. We are God’s people, in whom the Holy Spirit lives and it is important to honor God with our bodies and minds by staying pure.

“Don’t you know that you yourselves are God’s temple and that God’s Spirit lives in you?”